beautiful awakening ♥

I never meant for it to hurt,
I never wanted you to know,
but you do.

I never knew you'd read it,
I never thought I'd still mean something to you,
I still dont think i do.

I needed a place,
for my thoughts,
jotted down,
just in case one day,
when I read it again,
it'll remind me of you,
and the joy we shared.

I don't want you to hurt,
even if I am,
because I know you made that choice for the better.
Questions still bug me every now and then,
wondering if..if..ifs..

I know we're not gonna talk much anymore,
it's just too bad,
you said we'd stay friends,
i highly doubt it now.

Im glad to know that she's happier now,
and i understand when you say :"she had 10 times worse"
I know I've taken away something that originally belonged to her.
I regret it.

But, you've changed my life,
my perspective of life,
you allowed me to understand,
what it means to be in love,
out of love,
and without love.

I hope someday I'll just forget.
About how we would be if that didn't happen.
I can't wish with my heart right now, because you've taken it away..
Maybe someday, you'll give it back?

Getting stabbed and burned might not hurt as much as this.

wonderful =/